I’m not a fan of Christmas or birthdays this is possibly not a surprise to most people.

I watch people go into meltdown try to make things perfect and host the perfect Christmas dinner.  There is far too much food and enforced merriment.  There is a arms race of buying more things and doing more elaborate things and that just makes me despair.
I also disliked the saturation and commercialism..

Oddly I also don’t really like receiving presents, most things that I want I already have.. or are far too complicated or expensive to be sensibly bought as presents.. I have previously published a handy present buying guide, to help people who feel compelled to get me something..

What I most dislike is the disappointment*.   I want to be grateful that someone has clearly spent money and time getting me something that they think that I would like.. but I don’t need another scarf, or a t-shirt, or a bottle of shower gell, or some other executive toy.. but while I am unwrapping things, the voice inside my head is shouting “what is this landfill what on earth were you thinking.”**
I was because of this that I wrote a buying guide in the first place.

This Christmas I had one of these moments that I am trying not to be disappointed about..
I picked up one present, and it had the reassuringly satisfying sound of Lego,*** however when I unwrapped it, it was a non Lego building block system..   
I know that I should be happy, but I just feel overwhelmed with disappointment.
Part of me just can’t comprehend why someone would buy non Lego as a present, and not expect it to be disappointing..

At the moment I can’t even bring myself to open the box to investigate.

* Gosh I sound like an ungrateful brat.  Or just a grumpy thing, I know that I have been a bit down recently so that isn’t helping..
**   Even writing this is making me feel bad, that I should be more polite, more thankful, and less cynical and depressed about it all..
*** Something that is listed on the Darkpoint care guide..